Wednesday, May 16, 2007

The Essence of Life

So I was inspired again..what do you know, in the same week!! *or almost same week* :)

I wrote this which is something I've been thinking for a while but never could put it down in words and I'm not totally convinced this says exactly how I feel (perhaps I'll come up with another version another time)...but for now I thought I'd share it. Below I pasted what inspired me :) This has not been edited (like most things so forgive my mistakes :))

~ The Essence of Life
There was a hole in my soul I could not control
It kept telling my inside that I did not abide, that my love for this world increased inside
But I was not totally convinced that was the case, I just never found time to sit and increase the knowledge I love for all time
It created a burden always resting in my being, weighing down my shoulders
A neglect I felt I had done not realizing that I was tired by the time they day was complete
I had no energy, or patience to try and learn all that which can be learnt
Through my days I would still reflect about the 'lil things in life, never to forget God
Though my heart felt a different sorrow
My soul was contanstly feeling let down, as though my past was greater for I had time to comptemplate
But I've come to an understanding the love that I know, the knowledge that I see is what is and will always be in the lessons of life
It's the essence of life, it's the role of caring for children, it's the role of a wife
It's the essence of life, it's our duty to uphold it and control it
It's the meaning of our living our test to keep us doing what we know is right
Though my soul could not understand, though my heart felt I was missing a part
It's merely the essence of life, it's merely the essence of life
Live it with honor, live it with respect, live it with an understanding that we have to practice what we learn in order for it to have an effect
Never forget The Creator, the teachings that we have are greater when it goes futher than a book
The essence of life is imparting knowledge to our prodgeny, building a future with the love that we have
With an understanding that we gotta live and love, interact and learn holding on tight to the values, ethics and principals of the chosen way ... the only way...
The essence of life, is truth
Truth in all that we do, we say, and we become
Our religion is not a religion it's a life.. and it is THE essence of life!
------- (Below my inspiration)

...When she has her first baby, she must manage for another life even moredependent on her personal sacrifices. By the second, third, or fourth child, herdays and nights belong almost entirely to others. Whether she has a spiritualpath or not, such a mother can seldom resist a glance at the past, when therewere more prayers, more meanings, more spiritual company, and more serenity.When Allah opens her understanding, she will see that she is engaged in one ofthe highest forms of worship, that of producing new believers who love andworship Allah.She is effectively worshiping Allah for as many lifetimes she has children, forthe reward of every spiritual work her children do will be hers, without thisdiminishing anything of their own rewards: every ablution, every prayer, everyRamadan, every hajj, and even the works her children will in turn pass on totheir offspring, and, so on till the end of time. Even if her children do notturn out as she wishes, she shall be requited in paradise forever according toher intention in raising them, which was that they should be godly.Aside from the tremendous reward, within the path itself it is noticeable thatmany of those who benefit most from khalwa or "solitary retreat of dhikr" arewomen who have raised children. With only a little daily dhikr and worship overthe years, but much toil and sacrifice for others, they surpass many a youngerperson who has had more free time, effort, and "spiritual works." What they findis greater because their state with Allah is greater; namely, the awe, hope, andlove of the Divine they have realized by years of sincerity to Him. May Allah(swt) grant us all patience with our children and raise them as good,pious, godly people, Ameen. -Shaykh Nu Ha Mim Keller

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Mother-Mommy-Mom-Mum-Ami-Mama-Ma ... like no other

AHH ME AGAIN-- finally :) Back from pakistan, from wedding stuff, from driving stuff...from all that fun annoying stuff called life :)

So I read an email (pasted below) and it inspired me to I suppose write a continuation or write something anything for that matter ;)

I never knew ...
I never knew I had any patience
I never knew I could sleep a couple hours and still go on
I never knew I would be able to change so many diapers
I never knew I would be able to calm a crying baby
I never knew I would be able to care for someone 24-7
I never knew I would be able to put up with a tantrum
I never knew I would be able to take my child for their vaccinations
I never knew I would be able to let them go for their first day of school
I never knew I could feel more for someone else than my own self
I never knew I the feeling of unconditional dedication
I never knew the strength I had
I never knew I'd pray so hard for the future
I never knew I would have so much doubt - am I doing enough? are they taking in all they can?
But as a mom I now know...
I pray for the children, ours, yours, and the worlds
I can see a child for their inner peace, and strength
As a mom I now know that I could only know the love of a mom, when I became one.
As a mom the circle of life continues
As a mom the future is being built
Through your strength and mine, as moms our scarfices are their successes


Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom. Send this to someone who you think is a special Mom. I just did!
-author unknown