Another Year Gone

I feel at a loss

Another year going by, the Hajji's big day is about to pass

I have this yearning desire

To try to get up higher

but I'm plagued by the weakness within myself

By the laziness that dwells as each day passes and I haven't increased in the next life

How do I shake it off?
Distressed that I missed the opportunity 

There's a burden on my back that leaves me living restlessly

I fear my own hypocrisy

How do I make it, if I can't even motivate me ..

If I find days passing when I left off any memorizing or realizing

I can't justify it

It's simply a fault I need to fix

There's this sense of feeling weak

Like I'm slippin', creating a deceit 

How can I stand before Him

Knowing I'm lacking, and that I know I'm slacking

I need the strength ya Raab

Allow me, Will for me .. that the coming year I increase and I'm graced with the opportunity

To stand, to bow, to purify within the most scared of vacinity

Ya Allah! Forgive me for you love to Forgive

Strengthen me for I am weak with many sins

Guide me, for I'm lost without your aid and assistance

Show me to your Pleasure Ya Raabi

For I am at a loss in both worlds if I don't live to serve Thee... 

Shaykh Abdullah Hakim Quick

Quote: "Be aware of every hour and how it passes and only spend it in the best possible way. Do not neglect yourself, but keep accustomed to the noblest and best actions, and send to your grave that which will please you when you arrive to it. (Imam Ibn Al-Jawzee)

"As Almighty Allah has united us throughout the world in Arafat and Eid, let us spend our time in fasting, prayer, study, teaching, and whatever acts of righteousness we can perform. Let us strive to come out of these blessed days more united, softer in our hearts and ready to change our lives for Allah's cause. May Allah accept our ten days actions, our Arafat fasting and our Eid sacrifice. May Allah bless your families and protect us all from the wicked plans of the evil ones!"